Reality Sets In
I have spent of much of the past 2 years thinking about the day that Rob comes home that it never hit me how I would be feeling when he was on his way.
Reality has set in. In 35 days he will be home if only for three weeks. Then two weeks later he will be home for good. I don't know how to feel about that. So much has happened in the past two years.
We have both been through many different experiences, led completely different lives. For his last homecoming I was so excited and it was such a stressful visit. I just don't dare to let myself get excited this time.
I must admit I am very nervous and a bit scared. What happens if after being apart so long we can't get back a life together? What happens if we can't work past the stress of him coming home?
I also have to think that the girls are so much different then when he was last home. We have a life that is different. How do I let down the guard I have built up to make it through this deployment and let go? How do I let it down and let him take over what I have been holding together for so long alone?
I wish I had answers to these questions but I don't. I guess I will just have to take it one step at a time and pray for the best.
posted by Gail at 6:06 PM
8 Comments:
I was just thinking about you and how soon he will actually be home. Wow. I've never been through a reunion following a deployment but I would think that, given the nature of your relationship (or what I have observed in the time I have "known" you), things will work themselves out.
From the outside, my best advice is to take it slowly and give it time. Look at it like dating - take time to "get to know each other" again.
You said he'll be home for 3 weeks and then be gone again for 2? That might work out for the best - give you some time to get used to each other again and then a small break to regroup.
It will be ok. I'm praying for you, for him, and for the girls.
Ditto HFS, the trial reunion might work out to be a really good thing for you.
I have no advice, having never done a seperation of this kinf of epic proportion. I have, however, "known" you for years, and have every confidence that you will be able to work it out.
I'm so happy for you, and can't even imagine how surreal it must be to know that this is winding down.
One step at a time is all you can ask of yourself.
Be open minded, keep your expectations level, and jump in with both feet.
Your strength will carry you through.
And you have a really great support group of friends ready to stand by you.
I am so glad this will soon be over for you! I agree with the others - the three week "visit" will be a good thing.
We've never done two years, but have done several in the 6 month to 1 year range. The hardest part for me (being a control freak and all) is letting him do the things that I had handled by myself while he was gone. I'm still working on that, and he's been back for over a year now. :o
Like the Food Whore said, your friends will be there for you.
And Hawaii is always open :)
All things will work out- given enough time-(Remember how long you have known each-other ?)You do have a really good support group- And keep in mind Robs' eye is on retiring SOON- We'll just pray that God continues to let that happen and the Army doesn't have other plans.
YOu ARE BOTH in our prayers along with the girls and Gunter (Doesn't he have to give up part of the bed ?hehehe)
Gail, I can only imagine the sea of emotions you're going through right now. It's been a long two years for your family. I will keep you, Rob and the girls in my prayers.
And, I agree- just take it all one step at a time. I'm so glad that the four of you will be reunited soon.
Thank you all for your support I do know I have you all to lean on.
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