Wednesday, March 30

The Visit Ends

We had a wonderful trip to Williamsburg and Bush Gardens. We also accomplished a great deal around the house. Alyssa’s room has been painted. I just need to get her a dresser and hang some shelves and it will look great

Rob left today it was extremely painful and I don’t know how I walked out of the airport.

I wanted him to stay more then I have ever wanted anything. But he had to go. It seems I have spent so much of our married life missing him. I just don’t want to do it anymore. I don’t want to say good-bye one more time, I want to know he will always be there when I need to lean on him. Not by phone or email but here with me.

Now to make it through the next 9 months, I really am not sure where I will get the strength to do it but I have no choice…I have to do it, I have two daughters who need me to be able to do it.

I did make some decisions while Rob was home about what I want with my life. I will be going back to school hopefully this summer. I want to get healthy and be happier.

I will admit honestly I have no idea where to start but I am going to try. Taking it one step at a time. I don’t mind telling you at this moment it feels like I have a million steps to take before I can achieve one thing. It is honestly overwhelming and terrifying.


Tuesday, March 8

Today and a Wake - Up

I have to get through today and a wake -up and Rob will be home for 3 wonderful weeks!!!!

Theirls are so excited they can barely stand it. I am so excited I can't seem to keep on one task to save my life!!